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I'm finally feeling a little better today! My face was killing me most of the morning, but has seemed to get better throughout the day. I hate to say that, because I always feel like I jinx myself, but whatever. I don't feel any swelling in my gums anymore, so I think that's a good sign. Tell ya what, it was making me cranky, and I hate that. I want to enjoy playing with my daughter and not feel like it's a chore, and unfortunately, when the pain got bad enough, that's how it felt. I just wanted to sleep it off, but couldn't. I feel like such a baby complaining of a toothache, but it's really the worst pain I've ever had. Granted, I've always been super healthy, so that doesn't say much, but still. The kind of pain reminds me of labor contractions haha! More so after my epidural, when I could still feel it in my left hip. It was pain that would come and go. This is the same thing; so annoying! But like I said, it's feeling a lot better and hopefully not just for now, but for good!

I watched Desirae and Dylan today, since mom is still in the hospital. She's supposed to be released late tonight. It went better than I expected. Kenzie loves her naps, and still takes two a day. I was able to hold her off until the time mom normally gives the kids a nap. I put them in mom's room and went in Michelle's room with Kenzie. They all probably slept about an hour and a half, then we got up and went outside. It hasn't been very nice out lately, but I wanted to let them play for a little bit at least.

So I know we won't be having our wedding for another couple years, but I was thinking today how I really want to start planning. It's hard to plan when we don't have a lot of sit down time to figure out when we're even going to do it! I'm pretty set on summer or fall, but we'll see. I'm going to try to make it as affordable as possible, but of course nice at the same time. I have a lot of ideas. I've been a little obsessive about finding a photographer I like. Now that I've gotten into photography as a hobby myself, I'm so picky with other peoples work. Unfortunately, there aren't many photographers around here I like, especially when it comes to weddings! I haven't seen Jess do any weddings yet, although I know she plans to. I think she would do good, she usually has with everything else. And Jenn...ugh. She does SO good. But honestly, the more I thought about it, the more I realized how ridiculous I was for thinking we could ever afford her. We couldn't. We wouldn't have a wedding to photograph haha. It makes me sad, because she has gotten so good at what she does, and I know she'd do amazing, but we'll definitely be on a budget. SOO, I have NO idea. I have plenty of time to think about it anyway, and Maine photographers travel. We'll have to look around and see who does good work, but is affordable at the same time. Any suggestions are welcome ;-)

Speaking of. I thought I was dead set on my bridesmaids, but I keep thinking oh wait, I want her, too, then change my mind again. I sound so stupid haha. But honestly, I've always thought your bridesmaids were supposed to be the people who you've been closest to in life, who have never done you wrong, and who have always had your back. That's why I have my original four or five, but I have two or three others I'm debating on. Not sure where this is going, since I'm not going to name names, so I sound like I'm rambling...so I'm done :-) As for colors, I can't even decide on that til we pick a season. I LOVE aqua and pink! But I don't think it works well with the fall colors. It'd be great for spring or summer though!

I found this the other day on Sherry's Facebook. *Sigh* My baby girl! Look how tiny she was! She always hated those stupid mitt thingy's. It's sooo crazy how fast they grow. It's funny because while a lot of her features have changed, I can still see the same little face. And she still looks like that when she cries :-) It's amazing how much they change in what seems like such a short period of time. She now has blonde curls and the prettiest eyes I've ever seen on a baby. At times, I can't wait to have another, but then there's times where I can't imagine my time not being ALL hers. I know we'll have another eventually and will love them just as much, but I'm happy to be able to spend so much of my time with her. I'm all sappy tonight, haha, but she's 16 MONTHS now! Time really does fly, it's sad. She makes me so happy though, and I wouldn't trade any moment I've had with her for anything. 

Well, I suppose since Makenzie has been asleep for a while, it's time for me to relax for a bit til bed time. Sorry for all the rambling, I guess that is what this is for ;-)